kissing with tongue
Just watched disc 1 of season 1 of Secret Diary of a Call Girl and I’m in love with Hannah/Belle. She’s a glorious character and I can’t wait to watch the next disc.
Billie Piper isn’t frighteningly perfect looking either. She’s stunning, obviously, but in an approachable and genuine way.
The other night when I went to rent Dexter and was unable to because apparently our Blockbuster membership had run out? So after tearfully placing Dexter on the counter and leaving I rushed to Hollywood Video to hear that they don’t carry Dexter. I don’t know if this is as a whole or if it was just the store? That is how I haphazardly discovered Hannah/Belle.
One of my ex-boyfriend’s once said that he was a great boyfriend in the beginning but that after awhile he was a crap one. That for like two weeks to a month everything would be grand but after wards, for whatever reason it wasn’t going to be great. Strangely enough he was right.
[Side note: To this day I consider him a fantastic person and friend]
There’s a newer movie out, The Girlfriend Experience. I didn’t exactly grasp the concept until watching episode three. In it, Hannah/Belle explains that for a day (week/month) or so she is a lovely girlfriend but inevitably it ends an awful mess.
I feel a strange connection with this. Not being a call girl, I’m not nearly secretive enough, but the whole ending up a shit girlfriend.
To be honest, I’m far too independent to ever want to depend on someone else and letting people in makes me want to shoot myself. This along with a whole slew of other reasons … being selfish, lacking proper emotional reactions and fearing commitment like the swine flu.
Actually that last one is a terrible comparison, I fear commitment like I feared having my arm amputated.
So, a fuck lot.
I wonder if it is commitment that is scary or just how much most men piss me off after a few weeks – perhaps it is a combination. Thanks for an entertaining read.